A Break

6.07 pm. I'm going home soon after a four months absence. I have no words to describe how much I miss home. Today's an awesome day! All of a sudden I have $$$ rained on me; claims, petrol money, etc. Suddenly I've got all these petty cash to cover my expenses back home. Alrighty!

May I say how turbulent August was/is? So many things happened that once again prompted me to think about my goals and plans. May I just have one day back home, go chill at the beach and just contemplate? You know, like an old man looking out at the sea thinking about the past, I wanna sit there and look and design my future.

Oooo... have you ever heard of an amazing deal such as this: one day leave in exchange for a 9-days break!

My blog has been in such abandonment. I couldn't even manage more than a couple of post a month. I don't have that many things to say about myself anymore. It's work, work and work. Ahh.

If I have money, I will:

1. Shop in Singapore. Get myself new jeans, new dresses, new tops and nice Ts.

2. Take my car to a carwash.

3. Buy a mattress.

4. Buy an iPhone casing.

5. Buy books from Bookxcess.

6. Screw it. Buy books from Borders.

7. Buy a headphone.

8. Drive home every two weeks.

9. Join a gym.

10. Go for facials.

11. Go Jaya Grocer and buy every kind of imported ice cream.

You know what. I really don't know what I will do if I really have money. Umm.

24

24 is just a number, can?

No.

The W Word

Work can kill the passion of what you are doing if you're not careful.

It's the repetition and ritual. Doing the same things over and over again, to a point when I'm really tired and I'll question myself, "What am I doing here?"

I'm telling myself it's still worth it.

I listened to this radio segment and the deejay was talking on the topic of leading the kind of life you want. There was this one part I couldn't help but agree. Despite all the fall backs, disappointments and doubts one might encounter, it's important to ask yourself every now and then, if whatever you're doing is leading you to the life you want.

Really, I don't know what kind of life I want. Not concretely anyways, does anyone?

All I know is if work still brings a thrill to me when I'm beat and tired, it's okay, I'm still on the right track.

Work. Sounds so much like an obligation, a responsibility. Something everyone crawls out of bed in the morning for. It's what makes Monday blue. It's what people trade their soul and passion for in exchange for bread on the table (gawd... so melodramatic).

One of my friends from secondary school just got engaged. She blogged about the whole proposal and I couldn't help but feel so touched and envious at the same time. It was the most perfect and wonderful proposal I've heard of. It's not right to compare lives, of course, but I can't help but let one of those moments creep up on me and ponder.

Surely life is supposed to be more than just work?

The impulse was too good to be true anyway. =(

Not today, not tomorrow, but one day.

First Quarter

Quarter of the year has passed, how have you lived yours?

I made some resolutions beginning of the year, surprisingly I did make some progress.

1. Be happy.

I am content with what I have right now. Starting to fall into the routine of a working adult and getting used to the company. So yea, am good.

2. Learn how to make things move.

I know Flash! I've learnt some basic animation skills in Flash, thanks to doing a lot of banners at work. Though what I know is nothing to shout about, I do think it's an accomplishment for myself.

3&4. Learn how to code and illustrate.

Didn't happen.

5. Read 50 books in 2011

It's only March and I've hit 13 books. Progress is on track.

6. Start and finish my Eason Chan Artbook.

Didn't happen.

7. Save money for camera, laptop and holiday.

Didn't happen. However, I've set a short term goal for myself. In two months, if I'm still gung-ho about it, I'll go and get it.

8. Run.

Semi-happened. Just need to keep it up.

9. Lose fat, be healthy.

I've been eating a lot of salad lately. However, am addicted to junk again. So hard to lose the habit.

10. Be happy.

I really am.

I've worked for three months since Jan but it's only today that I got a full month's pay for the first time! Two days were cut from my pay in Jan coz I started work on the 3rd. Feb was coz I took 1 1/2 days unpaid leaves for CNY. Then in March, finally, my first full month pay! Screw EPF cutting off a chunk!

I'm only blogging about this here coz I don't want my boss to read this on FB. If I were to post on Twitter, it'll be too much to type. So yea.

Looking forward to May when Rui will be down again and when I'll make another trip back home. =D

Grownups

Love this. Live this. =)

The Perfect Sunday

Finally there's internet in my new place and also finally, being able to blog in my own time, in complete privacy.

The perfect Sunday:

Waking up on my own accord and not due to the alarm.

Leisurely shopped for groceries and not having to worry about buying fresh produce coz there's a new fridge in the house.

Cooked lunch albeit failed pasta sauce.

It rained cats and dogs and for once, I am indoors, looking out at the congested Kota Damansara traffic and thinking, "Luckily I didn't go out."

Huddled under my cozy comforter on a gloomy rainy afternoon.

Finished a book "The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo" over dinner. I finished half of the book in one day. The first half was slowly read over the span of two weeks, often at night when I was too tired to manage more than a chapter.

Restored my iPod and it now has 24GB worth of songs in it.

Today was good. Totally ready for tomorrow.

Tralalala~

Haiyaaaaakkkkk!!!!

Am forcing in a useless post just for the month of Feb. This blog has been going through a dry spell for two reasons. One, I'm working most of week now, there's really nothing much that happens which is not work. Two, there isn't any internet in my new place yet. Therefore can't blog for leisure.

This post is crafted in the office while waiting for files to be uploaded. Working life gives a whole new meaning to weekends!

Life has been productive, busy and nerve-wrecking. I like it. For every moment that I am busy, I am learning how to like my work and also to rant about how I don't get to go home. All rants aside, I kinda enjoy these late hours. Sometimes there is too much fear and anxiety, I think I pressure myself too much. But at the end of the day, no matter how convinced I am of being screwed, things turn out well. Not perfect, well is good enough.

The parking at my new place sucks big time! There is often no more parking when it gets too late. Plus, people there double park everywhere, most of them not having the decency to at least leave a name card or contact number on their dashboard so that they can be called to move their cars if needed. What's worse about this is that the indoor parking area actually has cement water leaking from the ceiling. I parked my car there last night and my car was splattered with this water and has some hardened white stains on it. Gahh... I hope it can be washed off.

Umphhh... miss randomly posting random nothings.

My zodiac says that March is gonna be a killer month. Conflicts and a lot of work happening. Hah! Come what may la.

Ta!

I am gonna live goddammit!! If I'm gonna die, I'll die by own hands, thankyouverymuch! So yea, no more chicken shit. I am gonna live and be happy. Screw it all. Tsk.

I Can't Wait to...

1. Be reunited with my car.

2. Get my first pay.

3. Go home for Chinese New Year.

Work's swell, but I'd love to have the holiday I denied myself. Why-o-why?

11.1.11 Resolutions

Is it too late for new year resolutions? What the hell, don't think I'll succeed, but heck, what the hell.

1. Be happy.

2. Learn how to make things move.

3. Learn how to code (pass if I can make my own website).

4. Illustrate.

5. Read 50 books in 2011.

6. Start and finish my Eason Chan artbook.

7. Save money for camera, laptop and holiday. (so not gonna happen, at least not all three at the same time)

8. Run.

9. Lose fat, be healthy.

10. Be happy.

Tsk. I used to make lists like this. Never worked. O well. I'll at least try.

Ta Peeps!

Gonna pack up soon and enjoy a leisure pre-dawn drive back home. I guess this really puts a full stop on things. Things have gotten sorta complicated as of late. I need a breather away from all this. I need time of my own to decide what is it that I want to do. Time to be away. Time to just enjoy being with me. And of course, with family too.

No one told me when I left home four years ago, it will be permanent. (more on this when I'm in a more emo-ish mood)

Ta..

Progression

Wokay wokay. So this is like Week15, right? Which means submission and all that shit right? And I did promise to show progress of all my finals, right? Right? Right? So, here goes. Progression:

LOL!!!!! ROFL!!!! Shit la this time.

Joys of a Lunatic

4.29am. Working on unappealing advertising. I have this thought in mind where once I am done with all the executions for advertising, the real fun can begin. Portfolio book. Self promo items. Exhibition's on 24 November. I figure if I really focus and give in ten day's worth of good solid work, things don't necessarily have to end in disaster. Minimal sleep. Productive days... and mostly nights.

I am so afraid. I think it's even affecting my appetite. Lunches and dinners are the time of the day which I look forward to. A couple of hours away from the computer, comforted by good food.

As much as I am buoyed by this uncertain feeling if I could even finish it all, I find this so exciting. I will work and be weighed down by all these crazy amount of work! I will also revel because these are actually things I derive joy from. Bringing beautiful concepts to life, drawing, creating, designing. I love it all. These final days will be hard, they will be tough. As they are gonna be the last days of my life as a student, I know I will make them worth my while. It's going to be superb.

I already have... four items nailed down from the five promo items that we have to come out with. From the picture above, you can see the stack of empty coasters that I bought. Empty. Fifty pieces. Hahahahaha... as if I didn't have enough work. Any idea on how I can use them? To draw? Mosaic pieces that can form a big picture? As business cards? As ninja shuriken?

I love my life as it is. This is gonna be the most exciting time for a while. Hee.

I will pack a bag, be on a date with myself to freeze the present into a letter for myself, ten years later. I fear and I look forward to December. For I journey. I will.

What the TOOOT

Got all these lovelies from Yueh Yih's album.

It was just supposed to be a weekend where we gather among ourselves. But lo-and-behold, some unexpected people turned up and we ended up having a mini-gathering of Georgians in KL. As always it was great seeing old friends again. It's interesting, seeing them where they are now, different from where you might expect them to be from secondary school.

A biologist who is pursuing an MBA.

A peer already earning the big bucks when I'm still in school.

An economist whom I thought hated numbers.

A constant finally making a change to her life.

A lunatic who is beginning to make sense.

And me, nothing. Expected.

I love this angle! Makes my face look sharp and yeng!

Anyways, had some rotten luck which sorta spoiled my excellent mood. I lost my wallet don't know where, must have dropped it when I left my bag unzipped? Rm200 cash, RM50 cash card, IC, license, ATM card, Haagen Daaz Ambassador card, Student ID, dobi receipt, one Guan Yin scripture amulet thing and my paper map design wallet, a gift from Shiau Fong from London. And oh, I got a summon from parking by the side of the road at Bukit Jalil. And yeah, took a wrong turn on the way back from KLIA which resulted an hour's detour and an extra RM8.60 for toll. Had to borrow money from people but still insisted on eating expensive food which is soooo out of my league now.

Not the worst of luck. In fact, I'm quite lucky. Still good. But but but... aih, just let me whine a bit. I'll feel better.

On a totally random note, I wanna go somewhere I can breathe. Just me and the wide open sky. Fuhhh.....

Noooooo

There was rushing of work until 6.30a.m.

There was a missing the alarm, got scared awake by a knock on the door, early morning.

There was a presentation after being barely awake from too little sleep night before.

There was submission on mounting board.

Then there was a really good sleep after an all-day's work in the afternoon, until the skies grew dark.

Then there was sleeping until early morning, waking up naturally, totally refreshed.

How can this not be the end of the semester yet? It looks and feels like it. Gahhhhh.... Many many torturous days forthcoming.

The small breather was just an illusion. A cruel one at that.

E. Again.

I ♥ E神

Do you know typing "<" and "3" together translates into "♥"? I've only just found out.