Last Post of 2009

Dear 2009,

You ROCK!!!!

You have been one of the best years in my life and I am sad to see you go. What will your big brother 2010 have in store for me, I know not yet. As the last moments towards end of the year tick closer, I shall celebrate your passing with a heavy heart.

I have never been fond of resolutions for I know it has never been easy keeping them. However, looking through my previous posts, I realized, I have made resolutions for you. From Hooi Fong, she wanted me to meet new people and to widen my network. For myself, I resolved to get to know the people around me and not be afraid. Brilliant you have made this possible for me. I have been terrible with people in 2008, but you, you gave me opportunities which I was happy to seize.

I braved myself to meet up with old friends I have never been comfortable to be alone. Some of these experiences are never to be repeated, some were so delightful those meetings became frequent, and others, made way to unforgettable experiences.

So many things have changed. I have more control over my thoughts and not let it wander too far. Self consciousness have been checked in bay, allowing me to be happy with friends, without me worrying about them not liking me. My mind have been more open, and my heart lighter. 2009 has made me into a happier person.

With 2009, I have encountered many new people and situations. I am glad to say I treasured every single memory of the people I have met. It's like jigsaw puzzle! I have not fitted in so well into anything for a long time. I felt assured. Belonged.

I was very laid back, holding on to the motto 'Living for the moment' like a lifeline. This was the hardest I have played yet. I languished in moments bringing new experiences, things I have never tried before. Truly enjoying the moment is only possible by not letting my mind go off to far, not letting myself over-think things. As giddy and intoxicated as I was wandering about in a dream, it's time to wake up. Reality awaits in 2010.

I have more focus and aim now. Next year will be my ultimate final year as a student. I will work my ass off to maintain my CGPA, if not improve it by a teeny bit. I will savour the freedom to go where ever I want without any liabilities or responsibilities, liberty that only life as a student can provide.

2009, I have been very happy. And content. But I have also been very sad. And cried so much. Good or bad, brilliant or devastating, you have been the best.

Signing off on the last post of 2009,
Quin


ps: As for you, my blog reader, thank you for being here through this year. Knowing there are people reading, catching up with my updates as well as commenting on my posts have kept the motivation in me to blog.

Till next year... 2010, the beginning of the end.